Irresponsible or loving daughter?

Is there hospice care where you live now? If she needs palliative (symptomatic, not curative relief), would that be an option?

Does your mom realize the can see a medical professional and refuse treatment? That is her right.

Get yourself some relief for your depression. And find things to do other than focus on mom's decline. It's her choice. It doesn't have to be yours!

Is there hospice care where you live now? If she needs palliative (symptomatic, not curative relief), would that be an option?

Does your mom realize the can see a medical professional and refuse treatment? That is her right.

Get yourself some relief for your depression. And find things to do other than focus on mom's decline. It's her choice. It doesn't have to be yours!

If your mom doesn't suffer from dementia and can still make decisions on her own then try to respect her decision to not seek out medical care at this time.

However, you said her conditions are getting worse and that she's in extreme pain. If she would go to the Dr. he might prescribe pain medication so she's not in so much pain. And if you get her to the Dr. you might ask the Dr. about hospice. Hospice is patient-centered, in the home, with no medical tests, no Dr. visits, no ER visits, and no medications (with the exception of pain and anxiety control).

Your mom doesn't have to be in pain. She can live out her life the way she wants to with no more Dr.'s and still stay at home and be free from pain.

No hospice care here, plus the whole point is that she wants to be in her house, kind of ignoring the obvious. Like I said, I don't blame her, truly. I'm however trying to find out if there could be any pain relief approach without really finding out the cause, a pain clinic of some sort where I could find help without my mom having to go..it's crazy I know. I just would give anything not to see her suffering. She says she wants to die daily, I try to make jokes such as, "mom, but i just got here..Not so soon!" Or not to say anything and ignore the comment or just tell her I love her. Like I said, I just don't want to see her suffering so much.
And I know I need to find a way not to sink with her, I'll try to find some relief for the mind :) thank you!

I'm not sure if Hospice is available in the country that is mentioned on your profile page. You could inquire and see. I think that I would attempt something to help mom with her pain, but, if she is mentally competent, I'd try to step back and respect her decision to not pursue more medical treatment. I can't see how you could force medical treatment. Why would that be an option? People have the right to make their own decisions about that. I don't find her wanting to have control over that matter as surprising at all. If you have trouble accepting her decline, which is very understandable, I'd try to find a counselor to discuss it with. It must be heartbreaking to know that she may not survive her condition. Take care.

Get her some painkillers if you can. See if there is a visiting nurse service in your area. Call her MD or oncologist, tell them the pain is increasing and ask how they can help. You are a good daughter by following her wishes.

If you google "palliative care in Nicaragua" you'll see a site called "Rewired and Retired" which has a whole section on pain control and many of the legal and ethical issues that might come up.

On the question of your responsibility to "push" medical intervention or not, if your mother is of sound mind then she is responsible for her own decisions. That doesn't mean you can't urge her to seek professional advice, and you can reassure her that no doctor in any country is going to force onerous, heroic treatments on her against her will - that really would be unethical in any language. But there will be a good deal they can do to make her much more comfortable. I hope you find a sympathetic practitioner very soon.

Rosses, you are suffering a lot having to watch your mother feel so bad. What you might try is to ask her to go to the doctor for you. Tell her that it would make you feel better to know why she was having pain and feeling so bad. Assure her that she doesn't have to do anything she doesn't want to, but maybe the doctor will know what's causing the discomfort and how to make it better. If you mother knows she is doing it for you, maybe she will do it.

Thank you all for taking the time to write. It's a very difficult situation..as all of our individual situations are, I know all who visit here are or have gone through a lot. My mom is kind of right in that she prefers to endure the pain rather than taking pills that will cause worst harm to her stomach. Yet, I know at some point the situation will get out of hand, mine and her hands. Someone told me a while ago that my mom's situation was way beyond being something that I could handle alone. Like I mentioned, aside from being sick she has a very difficult personality, yet and because of that I know I am the only person that can take care of her. Thank you church mouse for researching Nicaragua's resources. The thing is doctors want to see her in person, and she just doesn't want to be seen. It's because really it's non stop for her, if not the pain that she always has in her entire body, it's her teeth, her eyes, ears, hand..etc..you name it. Something is always failing, so we act only when she has no choice, so when not an emergency per se, she just doesn't want doctors.
When the moment comes, and I know somehow it will, we will have no choice but to seek medical help. Will continue researching palliative care options, although outside the US medical assistance of that type is not easily found. Thanks again for giving me feedback. I just hope I remain strong.

Bless your Mother sounds like she has been through a lot. Maybe you could talk to Hospice and they could come to the house and check your Mother out. Hospice could then contact her doctor and go from there to see what can be done to help your Mother. Your Mother is a lucky lady to have a daughter like you. Good luck to all of you..

rosses, I totally understand the way you set up this question. You can force her to do a little something, the question is what. When my mother says 'I want to die,' I tell her unfortunately she doesn't get to choose that, only what state she's in if her body still won't give up. Your mom is choosing misery NOT death, and if you agree you may find a way to gently point that out here and there. No one rightly chooses that, so you may find a way to get her connected to a care service anyway, and be ready for a fight and her not talking to you for a few days. How about searching for articles or youtube videos on 'people stubbornly rejecting pain relief' (I'd bet money they're out there) and read or show them to her. You know, words from other people vs. the silly daughter (I'm one, too). And get going on the 'second' item, care and coaching for you! I feel the SAME way, I take on too much of how my mother feels and you want to stay on top of that. Pulling for you!!

Rosses -- I am 85 year old woman in fair health who has instructed my children to contact hospice if I reach a point where I would be eligible for their services. If hospice isn't available her country, ask a church if something similar exists there.

"She has a very difficult personality, yet and because of that I know I am the only person that can take care of her." The 2nd half of that statement is a perception -- not a fact. Mom is an emotional vampire. And her mind games are overcomplicating something that is already sad and difficult -- for both of you.

Your mother does not acknowledge where she ends and where you begin (and she's always been that way, right?). You need to work double-time at healthy boundaries. Is it fair? No. Is it just as important as mom's medical issues? Yes.

Whatever path you choose, remember that after mom is gone, there will still be YOU. I urge you to find a way to be there for mom that allows you to retain your own life, your own relationships and your own ability to earn an income.

My dad reached that point, except he was planning to do to his next doctor's appointment and tell him - he was still on his "cancer" meds - that he was going to quit, only problem he had his doctor's mixed up and didn't really have an appointment with who he thought he did and looking back, not sure I really realized it at the time - mistake # how many? - anyway, before the appointment he did have he did wind up with an emergency situation that resulted in him winding up in the hospital, which could happen with your mom, if, I suppose, if you allow it at that point; maybe we should research those laws; I know someone who didn't even do that with their dad at that point because he'd said earlier he didn't want it

If hospice or palliative care is not available, you could research various modes of pain relief, other than pills. Or you could wait until an emergency, and attempt to get the doctor to prescribe a med regime that is followed up with phone calls, only.

I took my mother to have her port removed because she has been in remission from her cancer for 8 yrs, she's 84. I was told she could not be treated anyway if it came back because of her other health problems, heart failure, kidney failure, ect. One of her doctors was very kind and helpful to ME and he told me to cut out most of her doctors that they were just keeping the money wheel turning and we all are dying the minute we are born!!! I cut out half her doctors.

To help your mom along, you could say something like "it's okay if you want to go; I'll be fine" so she doesn't hang on thinking she has all these responsibilities. I would look into seeing if there is a doctor in your area who would make a house call. If so, that doctor could provide pain management.

I know this doesn't answer the global issue, but someone once mentioned there are creams that can be infused with narcotic pain killers that are applied topically or even pain patches. At least those would bypass stomach irritation? I'm sure you've probably checked, but would she let a provider come to her at home (house call)?

Loving daughter.

I recently took my mom to a geriatric Doctor so that she would have a primary care doctor to oversee her whole condition. I just moved her near me a couple of months ago. She's on about 12 medications for her heart and high cholesterol. The whole appt. got me so stressed out because of her defiant personality that I ended up with chest pains the rest of the day, not heart related, but stress related. She was refusing every test the doctor was recommending and calcium for her bones. She kept saying she had cardiologist before and that's all she needs. Her ankles are swollen which tells me the medications may not be enough. I am going to set up an appt. with a cardiologist, which she will see, but just saying I empathize with you. I know how stressful it can be when as a daughter you want to do all you can to help, but your mom refuses as you see her condition worsening. I guess as others have commented, it's her choice, and I've told her if she ends up in the hospital or assisted care, then she can't say I didn't warn her.

Hi, I would like to suggest something that is a little out of the ordinary. My Mom is 92 and has very little health issues. She still drives but only to the Senior Center and back every week day. She still lives in her own house too. However, a couple of years ago I spent the weekend with my sister-inlaw whose now 100 year old Mom lives with her. We took her Mom with us to get pedicures. I had never done anything like that before and saw how much her Mom enjoyed getting her feet and hands done. Afterwards we went out to lunch. It was a kind of girls day out that she does with her Mom about once a month.

I started doing this with my Mom on one of our shopping trips. I take my Mom shopping on the weekends. One weekend I asked her if she would like to get a pedicure or manicure or both. She opted for both since I wanted to get both. She loved it. We then went out to eat and then shopped for groceries.

This developed into getting a massage once a month and facial or pedicure/manicure. Sometimes if the money allows it we opt for twice a month massages. My Mom also likes to get her hair done. So I now set up appointments every weekend for her to get her hair done. On other weekends we get the massages or pedicures and manicures.

My Mom's doctor is amazed by how healthy my Mom is because the massages keep her circulation healthy, it helps with Mom's mental state and keeps her from getting depressed. My Mom looks forward to my coming by to take her shopping as she never knows for certain if we are getting massages or her hair done. She kind of likes not knowing until I pick her up. She will say, what are we doing this weekend and just smiles.

I, too, have a VERY "difficult" mother. The problem with everyone telling you to "just get pain meds" is that just about every medical professional who can prescribe pain meds is going to insist on finding out what is causing the pain--even if your mother is going to refuse to be treated for the cause of the pain--so they will want blood lab results, scans/images, etc.

One option that might work--with some up-front work from you--is a psychiatrist. Psychiatrists *usually* have no problem "seeing" a patient on the telephone. They often prescribe even Scheduled/"drugs of abuse" (like serious pain meds) from "seeing" the patient on the telephone. My suggestion is to reach out to your friends (or other family, if you are comfortable with that), professionals you know, or your favorite of your mother's doctors and ask for a referral to a psychiatrist.

You could make an initial appointment for you mother but go yourself--take your mom's recent medical records, the names and numbers of a couple of her best doctors (if the psychiatrist wants to confer), and some recent photos [showing you with her] or phone video of your mom [and you--ideally just before you leave, wearing the same clothes].

Explain the situation. Call your mom (make sure she knows you're going to call) and put her on speakerphone and introduce her. Let the psychiatrist do some Q and A. (The psychiatrist has to be sure that you aren't there drug-seeking for yourself. Volunteer to step outside so they can speak privately.)

If your mother has a problem with psychiatrists (like mine would!), just tell mom the psychiatrist is a "pain doctor" (and don't forget to tell the psychiatrist what you told mom and why). You may need a signed health care proxy where you are, I do not know. If nothing else, have mom write (or at least sign--video the signing on your phone if you can) a simple one-page document that says something like:

"I am [name] and I am [age]. I know, want, and have agreed for my daughter, [your name on ID], to see you today [date], [Dr. Name], to discuss my medical condition, problems, and desires. My daughter is my primary caregiver and is the person who best knows my medical conditions and my wishes not to have additional medical procedures. To assist her, I have provided her with my medical records for your review."

"I refused to go with her to see you today, because as she knows, my wish is to stay at home and have no further medical appointments or hospital stays. My wish for the outcome of her visit with you is that you will agree to "see" me by phone, and that you will prescribe me medication(s) that will relieve my constant pain, which on a scale of 1-10, is a constant [#], and has been so for [# of weeks/months]. I look forward to your call today and I hope you can help me. Thank you.
[Mom's signature and printed name]
[Mom's phone number and address] "

That's the best advice I have if you cannot find someone who will do a home visit, or cannot find a palliative care clinic. My advice assumes that you have already called you favorite of your mom's doctors to ask for a Rx for pain meds for her without success. Oh, and be sure to know her height and weight.

You mention there is no hospice, but can a visiting nurse or doctor come to the house? Perhaps she would accept the visit in the comfort of her own surroundings.
I would certainly talk with the person beforehand to make them fully aware of her wishes.

Let your mom know that pan relief is simply that - pain relief. It does not take the place of curative medicines nor does it stray from her obvious wishes. It will however allow her to have some pain relief as her condition progresses and she is able to make the personal decision as to what type of pain relief she prefers. It will also enable her and you to have some more relaxing moments where you can share thoughts and memories beofre the oportunity has passed. Deep breath - her difficult behaviors have a lot of frustration, anger, and loss of control in the mix. Let her vent and let her know you are there. Some times it is the best and most we can do. You will never look back with regrets that way.
Diane

IMO, persons with real clinical depression are not capable of choosing wisely or making good decisions. Treat the depression.

@ACOMNM, I have never heard of that and I find it really hard to fathom how that would be possible, especially in the current environment where abuse of painkillers is a huge issue. All I take is anti-anxiety meds but I can't even get a refill without seeing my doctor every 3 months. Previously when I was taking a different drug that was more controlled (for ADHD), I had to see my prescribing psych *every month* to get a *written prescription* to take to the pharmacy. So while your idea sounds promising, I doubt it would work. It might have been something that could be done 10 years ago, but not now.

Re: the OP's issue with her mom, I totally sympathize. My mom is in her early 80s and doesn't feel well. She's a melanoma survivor, but not interested in seeing a skin doctor to check everything out. She's got cataracts in both eyes, so she can barely see and can't read anymore, and reading used to be her favorite pastime! But she won't get cataract surgery. I take her to her regular GP appointments and lab test appointments, and she sees a headache specialist (she suffers from chronic headaches due to a sinus condition, and that is the one thing she will tolerate specialist visits for!) I've also felt helpless and wondered if I'm doing the right thing by abiding by her wishes. I agree with others who have said you need to take care of yourself, and also see if you can take her to a "pain doctor" (wink wink) who might prescribe her some antidepressant or anti-anxiety meds. (Anxiety and pain can be related.) Wishing you well and I hope you'll come back and check in with us so we know how it's going!

Hello Rosses. I would recognise You as a Loving Daughter. You are seeing to it that Your Mom's wishes are carried out in full, and it's Your Mom's decision. Your Mom does not want Her Life prolonged to suffer more agony needlessly since She may feel She's Lived a good long fruitful and happy Life up until the cancer.
My Mother was of the same Generation as Your Mom, and that is what She wished " to die in Her own home, in Her own bed.
Since there is no Hospice in Your Area, ask Your Local Hospital would They send a Nurse to assist and relieve Your Moms suffering.

That is spot on correct. You cannot handle it alone. That's why so many here on this topic are saying to get Hospice or VNA (Visiting Nurse Assn) involved.

Maybe look for a different type of healing for her and more importantly you. I am in the same boat to some degree with a very difficult mother and have just been through a horrible medical situation with my dad and he died 2 months later.

Functional medicine that look at cause. A tibetan Doctor who will only have to check her urine and feel her pulse to diagnose and give herbs if she would take them. (A Tibetan Doctor will work to the spiritual level of a person)

There are Herbalists and Naturopaths, etc maybe these type of healers your mum maybe more open to as the main stream medical can be extremely severe.

With the complex relationship you need to have someone you can talk to regularly and the only way out is to go within - meditate (learn a simple breathing exercise, enough to stop your mind whizzing around and get some clarity.)

We want to help so much but if they dont want it then it maybe about us letting go and that is not easy if you have a strong connection and as I you will need help. I am arrogant enough to think that it was better to take care of my parents myself than leave to others etc but maybe I am wrong. All I know now is I am so depleted from it all and I need the healing myself and maybe that is your story as well that you have to see to you first (otherwise we compound the situation by our own energy)

You can google all sorts of meditations if you are not doing it already give it a go. Ideas and thoughts will come through and maybe give you some more insight and another perception of where you are and what options you have and what action to take.

I wish you all the love and hope you get some really good help around you.
With love
Paula

I am a 73 yr old US citizen. Believe me when I tell you the BEST thing you can do for your mother is to listen to what she has to say. I have been on dialysis for the last eight years. A kidney transplant is out of the question at this stage of my life. I also have other health problems that make it difficult for me to dress just to go three times a week to the clinic for dialysis. There isn't a day that goes by that I wish I could die. I hurt so much sometimes. I am also lonely ...missing my husband who died two years ago on my Birthday.
My three children, two sons and a daughter constantly fight about who needs to take off of work to take me to appointments....often times in my presence.
So I am tired of it all. I saw a doctor the other day and discussed stopping my dialysis and what happens when one does. He agreed with me that it is strictly my choice...if I chose to do so. And that I could be kept comfortable till the end. Do I really want to leave my precious little grand and great grand children? No. But life is not too enjoyable anymore. I don't get to see them very often. Some times I can hardly walk and I keep having falls.
When I tell you to listen to your mom, I mean let her express her feelings. Tell her you understand how she feels, that you love her and you realize she's not enjoying life because of her discomfort. Tell her you want her to enjoy her last days as much as possible. Also try to do things she enjoys as often as possible. She will probably enjoy it very much. My love to both of you.